3 October 2018
I can sense pain and sadness in your gestures.
A badly hurt feeling of emotional torture.
I can smell gloom in the deepness of your soul.
Nothing we could do but pray for an early cure.
I can see the past of breakdown in your eyes.
A hidden agenda of truth behind your lies.
I can feel the aching heart even if you deny.
Nothing we could do even how hard we cry.
Nothing we could do with all the failures of you.
Nothing we could do but wish that it wasn’t true.
If only you have told me of what you’ve been through,
It could have been better even if there’s nothing we could do.
27 July 2015
I thought this will not go any bigger
Thinking that you are away from here.
I thought that I could fake what I fear.
I was wrong! Now here’s the feeling I can’t bear.
I will just see you in my dreams at night.
Maybe I could kiss you there and it is right.
I will just pray when missing you I can’t fight.
So true! I always want to hug you tight.
I thought it is enough just to dream at day
When I miss you and I don’t feel okay.
I thought loving you is just simply by words I say.
I was wrong! Time and distance will teach me the way
To love you.
28 February 2014
It’s 2:26 in the morning and still I can’t sleep.
Time is wasted and nothing of it I can keep.
You’re here in my mind and you keep me awake.
Seeing pictures of you but I know I couldn’t take.
I see your smiles even if you turn your back.
I hallucinate and I feel like I will have a heart attack.
It makes me sad b’cos it is the same in reality
And I know someday it will never be you and me.
I always try to pretend but I can take no more.
Living in a lie will bring more of agony than cure.
It’s 2:32 now and I still have a hard time to sleep.
It’s humiliating but I almost get myself to weep.
I have to stop now before it becomes too late
And try not to think of you even I am wide awake.
Adios, paalam, sayonara, or just a simple goodbye,
It doesn’t matter b’cos for you I am just a passerby.
17 February 2014
I have to sleep with cold snakes on my bed.
Let them cover me from my toe to head.
I have to sleep with them and fear no more.
Let them fill me from the outside to my core.
I have to dream and fly with the night crows.
Let them cover the day from high to low.
I have to fly with them and be one of them.
Let them fill me with wrath under my skin.
I have to crawl with spiders on the wall.
Let them cover me while I climb and fall.
I have to crawl with them in the cobwebs.
Let them fill me with silk like bloody red.
I have to hide in the dark like bats at the ceiling.
Let them cover me with wide and hairy wings.
I have to hide with them for I am a dark being.
Let them fill me with rage and amok feeling.
20 January 2014
I keep on erasing words to complete my lines.
Foolish I am ’cause thinking of you I shouldn’t mind.
I know someone like you will never be mine.
Foolish me ’cause things like this is a waste of time.
I keep on making new habits to divert my thoughts.
Foolish I am ’cause I lose all the battles I fought.
I know someone like you will never be caught.
Foolish me ’cause seeing you is like a goop.
I’ll just bite my toe nails if only I could.
Crazy it may sound as long as it will feel good.
I know a person like you is always not in a mood.
Crazy me if I fall on you but I don’t think I would.
I’ll just send a message if I am less than a man.
Crazy it may and you know it to yourself that I can.
I know a person like you will never be the one.
Crazy me if I will love you like the way I always am.
30 November 2013
I get annoyed with the colors on your cheeks
And the bloody wax that covers your lips.
But who am I to complain of what I supposed to seek?
You will never be the one that I am to keep.
I don’t want to look at you and mess my day
Because it is not I who should count your ways.
But who am I to complain, and what should I say?
You will never be the one because you will never stay.
I’m sorry to tell you what you’re not supposed to hear
And I shouldn’t be telling you what you can’t bear.
But who am I to complain of what I always fear?
You will never be the one who’s worth of my tears.
29 November 2013
Kasaw-a basahon ukon pamati-an ang Hiligaynon
Apang tinguhaan ko guid agud ini matigayon.
May dyutay nga kabudlay apang kinahanglan buhaton.
Mapabutyag guid lang ining luyag nakon.
Malawig nga mga inadlaw nga pas-an pas-an
Ining kabug-at kag kabudlay sa akon dughan.
Luyag ko man ihambal asta lang sa mu-al.
Mga tinaga gapanghawid sa akon tilaukan.
Masapnot ang tagsa ka pagtikab sang bibig.
Ang akon kaundan hinali lang nanlamig.
Luyag ko isinggit apang indi kapangakig.
Mabudlay kay daw isa ako ka maranhig.
Bulubaliswa lang sa akon guinaligiran.
Ang katuyo guinapangayo ko na nga mabatyagan.
Kasaw-a tungod indi ako dali-dali matulugan.
Indi mapatihan bangod ang kape akon man guinlikawan.
Madamo na nga tigbato ang akon nakurit.
Maayo pa ang tiki nga sa kisame gakabit
Huni-huni gamay maski sa diin makasab-it.
Ako ya indi guihapon ka tulog maski ano kapilit.
Miserable na guid ako siguro sa amo ni nga ti-on.
Ayos lang maski hambalon mo pa ako nga tikalon.
Ini nga kamingaw indi ko guid sa imo pag-akuon.
Ikaw na bahala kung ano ang luyag mo panumdumon.
Napayuhom man ako samtang guinabasa ko ini.
Ang kahimtangan ko matuod man gali nga miserable.
Butigon ako kung hambalon ko ang rason indi babaye.
Kadalawan ko na lang bangod maano man ako abi?
Hambala na kung ano man ang luyag mo.
Wala guid problema maski ikumparar mo ako sa tarso.
Nalingaw man ako gani kag wala guid sang kaso.
Maayo pa tane antes ako magtulog ikaw nasugilanon ko.
Tarungon ko na maski kasaw-a guid man matuod.
Daw waslik puder ka kay ang kamingaw ko imo guintabog.
Pati ang akon animo gulpi lang nagtabog
Gani daw basa nga pisu ako kay indi na kapahambog.
Gakaubusan ako sang mga tigbato nga iwakal
Tungod sa babaye nga indi ko man maipabugal.
Pasaylo lang kay talaw ako magresgo kag magsugal.
Sa pila ka adlaw kabay pa nga indi ko ini paghinulsulan.