28 February 2014
It’s 2:26 in the morning and still I can’t sleep.
Time is wasted and nothing of it I can keep.
You’re here in my mind and you keep me awake.
Seeing pictures of you but I know I couldn’t take.
I see your smiles even if you turn your back.
I hallucinate and I feel like I will have a heart attack.
It makes me sad b’cos it is the same in reality
And I know someday it will never be you and me.
I always try to pretend but I can take no more.
Living in a lie will bring more of agony than cure.
It’s 2:32 now and I still have a hard time to sleep.
It’s humiliating but I almost get myself to weep.
I have to stop now before it becomes too late
And try not to think of you even I am wide awake.
Adios, paalam, sayonara, or just a simple goodbye,
It doesn’t matter b’cos for you I am just a passerby.
17 February 2014
I have to sleep with cold snakes on my bed.
Let them cover me from my toe to head.
I have to sleep with them and fear no more.
Let them fill me from the outside to my core.
I have to dream and fly with the night crows.
Let them cover the day from high to low.
I have to fly with them and be one of them.
Let them fill me with wrath under my skin.
I have to crawl with spiders on the wall.
Let them cover me while I climb and fall.
I have to crawl with them in the cobwebs.
Let them fill me with silk like bloody red.
I have to hide in the dark like bats at the ceiling.
Let them cover me with wide and hairy wings.
I have to hide with them for I am a dark being.
Let them fill me with rage and amok feeling.
20 January 2014
I keep on erasing words to complete my lines.
Foolish I am ’cause thinking of you I shouldn’t mind.
I know someone like you will never be mine.
Foolish me ’cause things like this is a waste of time.
I keep on making new habits to divert my thoughts.
Foolish I am ’cause I lose all the battles I fought.
I know someone like you will never be caught.
Foolish me ’cause seeing you is like a goop.
I’ll just bite my toe nails if only I could.
Crazy it may sound as long as it will feel good.
I know a person like you is always not in a mood.
Crazy me if I fall on you but I don’t think I would.
I’ll just send a message if I am less than a man.
Crazy it may and you know it to yourself that I can.
I know a person like you will never be the one.
Crazy me if I will love you like the way I always am.
3 November 2013
A mighty knight with a shining armor.
Well, definitely it ain’t going to be me.
I’m just a man with a pencil, paper, and color.
In my canvas, a thousand images you will see.
A superhero with mask, cape and mystery.
Well, definitely it ain’t going to be me.
I’m just a man in jeans and my ragged tees.
In my gestures, you can’t tell what I can be.
I am what I am and nothing can change me.
Well, definitely this how it is going to be.
I am just a man with no disguises and mysteries.
This is the real me according to what you see.
14 October 2013
Sometimes I miss you just what I felt before.
Nothing I could do but to look away and ignore.
Sometimes I just stop and simply close my eyes.
Nothing I could do but to look away and disguise.
Sometimes I miss you and your smiles for me.
Nothing I could do but to think what it used to be.
Sometimes i just stop and think of you again.
Nothing I could do but to think and feel the pain.
Sometimes I miss you and the first time we met.
Nothing I could do but to breath deep and regret.
Sometimes I just stop and wait for another day.
Nothing I could do but to breath deep and pray.
13 July 2013
She moves so strange
as if we’re on a silent rage.
She talks so mean
but I know it’s not what she meant.
She disguises good
that she can’t be understood.
She is a book of mystery
and I need to know her slowly but surely.
5 July 2013
It is easy now than it was before.
It is easy though I still have to ignore.
Worry not ’cause I will you bother no more.
It is easy and I need not to score.
It is easy now to look at your face.
It is easy though I know it is still a race.
Worry not and I’m not after your grace.
It is easy and I need not to hurry my pace.
It is easy now and we can talk better.
It is easy though before it was easier.
Worry not ’cause I will not mind either.
It is easy and I need not to make it harder.
It is easy now and I can handle what I do.
It is easy for me but how about you?
Worry not ’cause I know you are tough too.
It is easy and I need not to care about you.