In the Darkness

17 February 2014

I have to sleep with cold snakes on my bed.
Let them cover me from my toe to head.
I have to sleep with them and fear no more.
Let them fill me from the outside to my core.

I have to dream and fly with the night crows.
Let them cover the day from high to low.
I have to fly with them and be one of them.
Let them fill me with wrath under my skin.

I have to crawl with spiders on the wall.
Let them cover me while I climb and fall.
I have to crawl with them in the cobwebs.
Let them fill me with silk like bloody red.

I have to hide in the dark like bats at the ceiling.
Let them cover me with wide and hairy wings.
I have to hide with them for I am a dark being.
Let them fill me with rage and amok feeling.

Who Am I To Complain

30 November 2013

I get annoyed with the colors on your cheeks
And the bloody wax that covers your lips.
But who am I to complain of what I supposed to seek?
You will never be the one that I am to keep.

I don’t want to look at you and mess my day
Because it is not I who should count your ways.
But who am I to complain, and what should I say?
You will never be the one because you will never stay.

I’m sorry to tell you what you’re not supposed to hear
And I shouldn’t be telling you what you can’t bear.
But who am I to complain of what I always fear?
You will never be the one who’s worth of my tears.

Definitely

3 November 2013

A mighty knight with a shining armor.
Well, definitely it ain’t going to be me.
I’m just a man with a pencil, paper, and color.
In my canvas, a thousand images you will see.

A superhero with mask, cape and mystery.
Well, definitely it ain’t going to be me.
I’m just a man in jeans and my ragged tees.
In my gestures, you can’t tell what I can be.

I am what I am and nothing can change me.
Well, definitely this how it is going to be.
I am just a man with no disguises and mysteries.
This is the real me according to what you see.

I Have To For Me

2 November 2013

I have to close my eyes so I can see.
To see things what they supposed to be.
To witness what they do against me.
I have to close my eyes for me to see.

I have to zip my lips so I can speak.
To say the words that I can’t take.
To shout to the world that I am not weak.
I have to zip my lips for me to speak.

I have to cover my ears so I can hear.
To pay attention to what is unclear.
To listen to the noise of the world of fear.
I have to cover my ears for me to hear.

I have to stop my heart so I can feel.
To touch one’s soul made of steel.
To care to those hearts that need to heal.
I have to stop my heart for me to feel.

Sometimes Nothing I Could Do

14 October 2013

Sometimes I miss you just what I felt before.
Nothing I could do but to look away and ignore.
Sometimes I just stop and simply close my eyes.
Nothing I could do but to look away and disguise.

Sometimes I miss you and your smiles for me.
Nothing I could do but to think what it used to be.
Sometimes i just stop and think of you again.
Nothing I could do but to think and feel the pain.

Sometimes I miss you and the first time we met.
Nothing I could do but to breath deep and regret.
Sometimes I just stop and wait for another day.
Nothing I could do but to breath deep and pray.

Do You?

29 June 2013

I regret that I told you before you know it.
Some say it’s a failure that I should forget.
I regret ‘cos things are not the same anymore.
Some say I’m busted ‘cos I just can’t have a score.

Do you know what time is it at this very moment?
Some say this is my curse and my punishment.
Do you know how hard for me to keep it as secret?
Some say I’ve gone crazy since the day we met.

[Unfinished]

What’s The Matter (With Me)

22 June 2013

It don’t matter if the sunshine will not be visible.
It don’t matter if the rain will never fall.
It don’t matter if the stars are so far away.
It don’t matter when the moon does not display.
It don’t matter if the road is winding and long.
It don’t matter if I’m weak and you’re strong.
It don’t matter how ugly I am when I cry.
It don’t matter and I don’t ask why.
It don’t matter if tears are in my eyes.
It don’t matter how you said goodbye.
It don’t matter how many times you break my heart.
It don’t matter how much I am hurt.
It don’t matter what I have to do.
It don’t matter what I am to you.
It don’t matter what it’s going to be.
What matters is what you are to me.

She Was There In My Dreams

29 May 2013

She was there in my dreams even before I knew her.
In my cold and unmoving nights she was there.
She was there and I never thought of the reality
In my sanity and insanity, she was my fantasy.

She was there though my mind is truly shattered
In my silent and lonely night she was there.
She was there and I can’t accept what happened.
In my dreams and daydreams, she was within.

She divided my mind half of truth and half of lies.
In absence of my illusions I chose to deny.
She broke my heart though I really avoided to.
That she is strange and someone I don’t know.

She casted gestures I can’t measure by view.
In my heart and in my soul, she was someone new.
She broke my heart and yes it is something true.
That she is weird… and that she is you.

Such A Fool

22 May 2013

I have a secret place here in my mind
Where hidden thoughts of you they can’t find.
Now it’s heavy and it’s crashing my head
Added by the pieces of words you just said.

It keeps me awake though I avoid it to happen.
It lingers but I don’t know if it’s really pain.
I want to explode so this will turn into pieces.
Shattered bit by bit and fine as ashes.

I really want to convince you but I rather not.
This may lead our learning to immediately stop.
Come what may but my hope is still strong.
Chances are thin but I choose to go on.

I need you to know I’m happy this way.
Happy to be with you day after another day.
I’m such a fool for you to share such thoughts.
It’s okay as long as it will erase your doubts.

Days From Now

20 February 3013

I don’t own you and I don’t hold the time too.
Days from now I will no longer be seeing you.
I don’t own anything but only the smiles you do.
For sure you will be taking a part of me when you go.

Days from now will no longer be my daily habit.
The smiles you bring I will no longer have it.
Until now I don’t know how to deal and admit,
This admiration for you will surely be hard to forget.

My lines might lost its thoughts and its rhymes.
The pen, the paper, they will soon be hard to find.
Days from now I’ll be counting the hands of time.
Why the pages of my life seems so very unkind?

I will see you then if our destinies will allow.
I will be seeing you no matter when and how.
So sad but I will just dream of you somehow,
So sad cos we will part ways days from now.