Stay Away From Me

3 May 2021

Stay away from me when you need it the most.
I will not hold you back and I will pay the cost.
Stay away and never look back if it really matters.
It will feel like days before we meet each other.

Look away if you need not to look at me anymore.
I will not call you to turn your face once more.
Look away and never think of coming back again.
It will feel like fading and all gone with the wind.

Be silent and keep all the words you ought to say.
I will not ask of any thing from you after this day.
Be silent until all the chances to talk are gone.
It may not be today, but it will happen too soon.

What Am I To You

29 April 2021

You bring me back to my younger days. I did not expect this. What am I going to say? Like an old photograph, dusty and forgotten, you give me back my life. You make me miss the things I used to mess. What am I to you does not matter, I guess.

You remind me of how miserable my mind was. I need to cope. I need to relax. I need to halt. Like a speeding bullet, savagely fierce and wild, I stopped. You make me look back and reminisce my youth. What am I to you does not matter to us both.

You came into my life and it was a surprise. If only I could ask, “Are you an angel in human disguise?” Like an old story in an unopened book, no one ever knew the secrets of my existence. What am I to you are words to be written in sentences.

We Are Strangers

27 April 2021

We are strangers but only because we haven’t seen each other. You are too far but you seemed so near. We are connected but only when we touch the screen. We are strangers and that’s when it will begin.

We are masterpieces but two different colors and schemes. I am the obvious and I gave you hidden meanings. We compliment each other but they never knew. We are masterpieces and we are something new.

We are poetry and our worth are better off unknown. We belong to each other but only to the depths of our souls. What we are to each other is not essential. We are poetry of lies but every thing is too special.

I Think of Sleeping

26 April 2021

I think of sleeping but I can’t. And the more I think of it, the more I can’t find. Unnecessary things come into my mind. The letters, the word, they are on the tip of my tongue.

I think of sleeping but it slips on my mind. My thoughts wander and I wonder where it is now. Now they seem too hard to find. The images, the figures, they are all gone.

I think of sleeping but there are buts. And the more I search for answers, the more I find whys. I need someone to tell me it is okay — to close my eyes, to hush, and pray.

Let’s Build A Home

15 April 2021

There is something in my mind when I hear your name.
Something even my inner self could not explain.
Your name brings back the memories I kept deep within,
And it tells me now that nothing will change a thing.

There is something in my heart that I keep longing.
Something even my soul could not stop denying.
Your presence lingers and I know I can’t do it again.
It tells me now that this time I must do something.

The shadows of the clouds move from east to west
While the wind blows and it takes away my sadness.
A stare at the moon will comfort me from madness
And a view of you will bring back all of my memories.

So catch me now before I fall on the wrong person.
Carry my weight and tell me we should go on.
Hold my hand and take me to places where we belong.
This time please say “yes” and let’s build a home.

Katuluyhon, Sa Diin Ka?

9 October 2020

Ang huni sang tiki, paka, kag tuko bati-on
sa malinong kag matugnaw nga kagab-ihon.
Maski sa pagpangurumbot ko sang habol,
bati-on ang upas sang kuring nga garinungkadol.

Pilit ko man nga ipiyong ang akon mga mata,
ang kuba-kuba sang dughan ko nagalinagumba.
Kabudlay magtulog kag ako man naga-aliwasa
kag ang pinsar ko wala diri kay galuyong pa.

Indi matakos ang tubig kag gatas nga nainom ko.
Padayon pa gid ang pagbaliswa sa wala kag tu-o.
Isa na ka gatos ang naisip ko nga mga karnero,
apang wala ko pa nalab-ot ang akon katuyo.

Ang mga ambahanon nga yari sa akon pinsar,
nagapatikab sang bibig ko kag indi ko maibitar.
Ang katuluyhon tani akon man nga maimbitar.
Sa katre yari na ako, handa na kag nakaplastar.

Padayon ang akon paglaghap sang katuluyhon.
Gusto ko na gid magpahuway kag magpiyong.
Gasamu na ang luha ko kag akon nga sip-on.
Kabudlay gali magtulog kun may ginapanumdom.

Part Of My Whole

17 September 2019

Sketch the scars on your heart by melodies you sing.
Draw the lines on your forehead by memories it bring.
Crush my bones with the words you deny but you feel.
Slash my skin with smiles but never be mine to tell.

Can’t you hear the riff I strum and play on my mind?
Don’t you care the beat of your heart you long to find?
And when people ask me of what I have been told,
I will just say that I am young and that you are old.

Time comes that I will just look away from your presence.
Please understand that I need to ignore your existence.
Though it will burden me to the depts of my soul,
One way or another, you’ve been a part of my whole.

Paint my life with the precious times you spent with me.
Color my world with your music and lovely melody.
Sing with me the beautiful songs we both like to listen.
Hold my hand for once and stop my heart from crying.

Pag-ibig na Walang Pagmamahal

4 September 2019

Alay ko sa iyo pag-ibig na tunay kahit ito’y hindi lubos. Mga salita sa bibig ko’y hindi ko matapos-tapos, katulad ng araw na araw-araw ding lumalagablab ngunit hindi maupos-upos. Pag-ibig na parang hanging hindi mapigilan at hindi maubos-ubos. Ngunit ito’y huwad dahil ang pag-ibig na ito ay sadyang kapos.

Iniibig kita ngunit hindi kita mahal. Katulad ng langit na parang uulan ngunit ang totoo ito’y aambon lang naman. At kung handa ka na sa pagpatak, mawawala at liliwanag din lang. Aabang-abang sa kulog at kidlat kahit takot na takot ang mga usal sa dasal. Pakunwari lang pala katulad ng pag-ibig kong walang pagmamahal.

Iyong-iyo na ang lahat ng sa akin kahit wala akong maibigay. Ito ay patunay na ang pa-ibig ko ay walang humpay. Patunay din ito na ang magmamahal ko sa iyo ay wala na ngang saysay. Iyong-iyo na rin ang aking buhay, dahil buong buhay na rin ako sa iyo’y naghihintay. Wala ring napala kahit akin pang ikamatay.

Iniibig kita at alam kong alam mo ‘yan. Pag-ibig kong ito na dati mo pang iniiwasan. Natutunan na rin kitang tiisin, pero tinitiis ko lang. Ayaw kitang isuko at pilit kitang ipinaglalaban, ngunit ayoko nang ipagpatuloy dahil ako’y nasasaktan. Kaya iyong-iyo na itong aking nararamdaman, itong pag-ibig kong walang pagmamahal.

Boy Bungisngis

6 November 2018

Nakakapagod ang iyong kulit. Kahit nakakairita hindi ako pwedeng magalit. Bungisngis ka nang bungisngis, hindi kita matiis. Para kang asukal na sobra ang tamis. Kahit hindi pwede, lagi kang ninanais. Nakakaumay ang iyong mga iyak, ganun pa man hindi pwedeng hindi kita mayakap. Bawat luha mong pinapatak, dibdib ko nama’y parang nabibiyak. Gusto ko sana’y palagi ka sa aking tabi, mula sa paggising hanggang sa pagtulog kung gabi. Kahit ilang beses pa akong mapuyat, kahit labi ko ma’y aking makagat, ititimpla ka pa rin ng gatas mong inumin, papalitan ang basa at mabaho mong lampin. Tanggal ang aking pagod, basta’t pag-uwi ko karga-karga kita sa aking likod. Problema ko’y aking nalilimot sa bawat ngiti mong sobrang maharot. Nakakatawa ang iyong mga hiyaw. Nakakaaliw ang iyong mga sayaw. Nakakabaliw ang iyong mga sigaw. Kung ang iba ay ayaw kang lumaki agad, ako nama’y hindi makapaghintay na ikaw’y tumangkad at makapaglakad nang sa gayon ay maisama kita sa lahat ng gawain, at maturuan kita kung ano man ang mayroon sa akin. Bilisan mo na ang paglaki. Bilisan mo na aking Elei.

Ipikit Ko Na

29 October 2018

Kung pwede lang ibalik ang nakaraan. Kung pwede lang bumalik sa aking kabataan. Kung pwede lang burahin ang tinta na nakasulat sa palad na hindi ko na mabuksan. Ang palad na pilit isinasara na parang nakakandadong pintuan. Ewan ko kung bakit parang ayoko na kung ano man ang mayroon ako ngayon. Ang kahapon na nilimot na ay parang nakabukas na aklat. Inagiw, inalikabok, nakakabaliw, nakakapusok, sa puso kong ayaw na sanang tignan kung ano man noon ang nakasulat. Ngunit may mga bagay na kahit ayaw mo na ay walang kang magawa kundi pagbigyan, katulad ng laman ng utak ko na hindi ko na mapipigilan. Parang mabahong tubig sa kanal na umaalingasaw. At para ring mainit na sabaw, pilit mo mang lunukin, nakakapaso, kaya isusuka mo rin. Ayoko ko na! Ayoko nang isipin kung anong mang gusto kong isipin. Nakakaantok pero hindi rin naman inaantok. Mag aalas kwatro na, pero mata ko’y bukas na bukas pa. Nakatitig, natutulala sa wala. Mabuti pang ipikit ko na. Ayoko na! Ayoko nang magpuyat at magising buong gabi hanggang umaga.